A Song For Today

I don't really have the time to write a lot about what's going through my head right now. There's a lot and it's definitely meant for another post....maybe more than one? I dunno. All I can say is that I am now entering another time of uncertainty with this whole getting pregnant thing. I am about to start my first round of Clomid, plus an injection of Ovidrel and an impending IUI (a.k.a. Artificial Insemination) in the next few weeks. To say I need prayer for sanity would be the understatement of the year, but I'm gonna say it.....People, I need prayer!

Sometimes I think that I can't take too much more. I think that enough is enough already......don't I deserve a consolation baby/prize for all my hard work? Or at least a break? Something? No? Ok, I will press on. God knows what I can handle and by gum, He has chosen the right couple for the job. Yes, I have had to wait for literally everything good to happen in my life and all the waiting has been soooo worth it! Prime example, my amazing husband, Matt!

Okay, okay...I have written more than I originally intended to. The point of this post is to give you the gift of an amazing song. It is a song that constantly goes through my head at any given time that I'm feeling weak and weary. It is by a spectacular Christian artist by the name of Phil Wickham and the song is called "Safe". I am going to post the lyrics below and hopefully find a way to post the actual song below the words. I hope that the song and its words sink deep into your soul, especially if you're hurting today and just need to be reminded that God holds you in His capable arms and He is and will always keep you safe. Enjoy!

SJR

PS. Be sure to pause the player at the bottom of my blog if you're going to listen to this song.

"Safe"
Phil Wickham

To the one who's dreams are falling all apart
And all you're left with is a tired and broken heart
I can tell by your eyes you think your on your own
but you're not all alone

Have you heard of the One who can calm the raging seas
Give sight to the blind, pull the lame up to their feet
With a love so strong and never let you go
oh you're not alone

You will be safe in His arms
You will be safe in His arms
'Cause the hands that hold the world are holding your heart
This is the promise He made
He will be with You always
When everything is falling apart
You will be safe in His arms

Did you know that the voice that brings the dead to life
Is the very same voice that calls you to rise
So hear Him now He's calling you home
You will never be alone

These are the hands that built the mountains
the hands that calm the seas
These are the arms that hold the heavens
they are holding you and me

These are hands that healed the leper
Pulled the lame up to their feet
These are the arms that were nailed to a cross
to break our chains and set us free

• Safe by Phil Wickham

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It has been a while.......

I can't really decipher if I haven't blogged purely because I've had nothing to say or I just didn't have the time. Or maybe I felt that if I blogged it would only come out sounding like a whiny toddler.....Nah!

I think that there's just been a lot that's happened between the time of my last post and today, April 13, 2010. Nothing really special about today, but I felt like I needed to post something! There's like cobwebs in my blog because it's been soooo loooong! Ha!

Anyway, a little over a month ago I got a call/text from my brother saying that I needed to call my Mom because she was going to have a pacemaker put in. Um, what?!? No! Mom doesn't have anything wrong with her to warrant a pacemaker, right? Wrong! So, I called my very apprehensive Mom whilst trying to keep my cool on the other side of the phone. Meanwhile, I'm thinking that I'm thousands of miles away while this is happening to my Mom and I can't be by her side to be with her. Y'all need to understand that I've always been there for her when she had SVT episodes, her gallbladder removed, kidney stone issues, etc. etc. etc. It sucked that I couldn't just drive to the hospital and be with her. The next thing I find out is that her Dr. also wants to do an ablation to correct her SVT's. Ugh! Two surgeries??? Oh heck no! I've got to get to California somehow!

The next day I talked to my Dad and we found a fairly inexpensive fare for me to come there. I got to stay for a little while and take care of my Mom and such. It was nice to be home. I needed a break from TX for a little bit. I'm pretty sure I was starting to annoy everyone who came in contact with me and vice versa! (yes, I can pretend to be patient, but I was on the verge of a break-down!)

Usually when I go home for a visit I jam-pack my days with going places that I don't get to go to anymore like SF, Tahoe, LA, Napa, etc. This visit was just much more laid back because the focus wasn't on me and where I wanted to go, but how my Mom was feeling and what she needed. I did get to spend more time with my brother, Bart and sister-in-law, April...plus their two goof-dogs, Dr. Finklestein and Maurice Chevalier. We saw "Alice in Wonderland" on the IMax 3D, which completely rocked! We were the only sober people in the whole theater.

At the end of my visit I was invited by my good friend, Heather, to see an awesome dance show by Core Dance Collective. It was such a great show and the dancing made me really miss performing at that level, not to mention choreographing dances that actually mean something. After the show I got my first experience of The Melting Pot.......OMG!!! I am in love with this place! I wish it wasn't so dang expensive because I'd go there at least every other month. We had such a great time just catching up on everything and talking non-stop.....it was nice to be so open and honest with someone that isn't my family or my husband. I'm glad that I went and I'm so glad that she's still a part of my life! She needs to come visit us in TX.....soon...hint, hint!

Um......what else, what else, what else??? Weall, there's a lot more, but I will save that for next time! Comment if you wanna hear more!

SJR