How can you turn a curse into a blessing?

So, I haven't posted anything in a while. Not because I didn't want to, but because finding the time and inspiration to do so can be wearisome at times. Anyway, I don't consider my life to be any less full of blessing than anyone else's, but every now and then I tend to have pity-parties for myself (and everyone is invited!). I'm sure the majority of you who read this know that Matt and I have been trying to have children for over a year now to no avail and the longer it takes the more impatient I get. I am impatient by nature and I don't think there's anything or anyone (besides God) who can get me to be patient. With my impatience comes the ever so popular "pity-party" and no one enjoys those, not even the person going through it truly enjoys it. I just start to feel so sorry for myself that I forget all the wonderful blessings that I have been given. I am a blessed person! But the problem is that what I think is a curse or whatever you want to call it, maybe isn't a curse after all. At least I need to start thinking of it as a blessing instead of a curse. You can never truly plot out your life even if you have a day planner from Franklin Covey, it won't happen. Life throws curve balls at you that you are expected to do something with. Hopefully you won't strike out when they come at you, but sometimes you do and that's perfectly ok. I do actually have a point that I'm trying to get across, so bear with me! There's nothing you can do, say, get away from, etc to plan everything that is going to happen. I don't know if you'd even want to know what was going to happen if you had the chance. I sure wouldn't have liked to know that I would be going through whatever you want to call this when I was younger because then I wouldn't have enjoyed the life that I had leading up to this point. If I had been told that it would be hard for me to get pregnant then, I would have been more depressed than I am now. The point is, no matter what happens I need to remember that I'm not cursed, I am blessed. Really truly blessed! Matt gave me this verse today that he got from a Greg Laurie devotional: "We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed and broken. We are perplexed (confused, bewildered, puzzled), but we don't give up and quit. We are hunted down, but God nevers abandons us. We get knocked down, but we get up again and keep going." 2 Corinthians 4:8-9 I really needed that inspiration for the day and every day to remind me that I am not alone in this battle that we call "life". I will never be alone as long as God is on my side and those who've gone on before me. Today I was also reminded that when we think that we are going through the worst possible circumstances, there's always someone who has it worse off. I'm not saying that to minimize your suffering, but to encourage you that there are other people who understand and are going through it too. You aren't alone! With this I was reminded of a song that I've loved for so long. It is called "Gratitude" by Nichole Nordeman and I would highly recommend that you listen to this song as it is truly a sweet masterpiece! I want to let you read the lyrics, but if you've never heard the melody, please listen to it!

Send some rain, would you send some rain..
'Cause the earth is dry and needs to drink again
And the sun is high and we are sinking in the shade
Would You send a cloud, thunder long and loud?
Let the sky grow black and send some mercy down
Surely You can see that we are thirsty and afraid
But maybe not, not today
Maybe You'll provide in other ways
And if that's the case.....
We'll give thanks to You with gratitude
For lessons learned in how to thirst for You
How to bless the very sun that warms our face
If you never send us rain

Daily bread, give us daily bread
Bless our bodies, keep our children fed
Fill our cups, then fill them up again tonight
Wrap us up and warm us through
Tucked away beneath our sturdy roofs
Let us slumber safe from danger's view this time....
Or maybe not, not today
Maybe You'll provide in other ways
And if that's the case...
We'll give thanks to You with gratitude
A lesson learned to hunger after You
That a starry sky offers a better view
If no roof is overhead
And if we never taste that bread....

Oh the differences that often are between
Everything we want and what we really need

So grant us peace, Jesus grant us peace
Move our hearts to hear a single beat
Between alibis and enemies tonight
Or maybe not, not today
Peace might be another world away
And if that's the case....
We'll give thanks to You with gratitude
For lessons learned in how to trust in You
That we are blessed beyond what we could ever dream
In abundance or in need
And if You never grant us peace...

But, Jesus, would You please.....

So, if you have the chance to read this blog or these lyrics I challenge you to really examine what is a "curse" to you in your life and find a way to turn it into a blessing. Nothing makes the enemy more angry than when you turn something meant for harm into something that will ultimately bless your life. Not that I think that our pregnancy delay is a curse of the devil or a punishment, but my negative reaction to it's delay is the curse. What is going on in your life that you need to change your way of thinking? What sun is heating you up that you just need to whip out the sunblock and sunglasses and enjoy the warmth? Believe me, I am talking to myself too. I don't have any answers to your problems or my problems, all I can hope and trust in is that I know who does have all the answers and His ways are much higher than my own! I just want you to be inspired to go through this "storm" and be in gratitude every day no matter what! I will be doing the same thing right along with you! Thanks for reading!